Sacrificial, Soul, Sickness

1st Published in Rebelle Society  

© Susan Marie

Sacrifice the sickness in your soul.

Do it. Now. I dare you.

It is not that hard, really, when you think about it. Wait, I don’t even want you to think about anything at all.

Just as I am here typing these words coming directly from an unknown source greater than myself: one that I am unable to properly decipher, something that makes the wind scream, the skies turn kaleidoscopes, the snowflakes look like diamonds and the waters rush upon my bare feet in the sand — that energy, tap into that instead.

You have it, we all do. It is in our souls, and if you even try to tell me you do not have a soul, well, how are you breathing, your heart beating, how are you even reading this?

It does not really matter what I believe, you see, my purpose here today is to attempt to get you, as many before have tried, to let go of all of those negative what ifs floating around in that brain of yours.

You know they exist, hiding back there in the attic of your head like some old dusty box that you never open because memories come flooding in from the past that you never addressed back then, so why address them now?

Why?

Because if you do not sacrifice, soul, sickness, you are going to keep riding on a psychotic, unending roller coaster, and not an enjoyable one either, of always wanting more.

I don’t mean success or achievement or even happiness, I mean those nasty trolls that wake you up at night and bring a frown upon your face when no one is looking. Yes, those. We all have them, after all, we are only human.

As Tracy Chapman once wrote, “All That You Have Is Your Soul”, so at the end of the day, when all is said and done, and you are alone with yourself in the dark, can you honestly tell me that you have sacrificed your soul sickness?

If you can, good. Keep doing that.

It is a constant purge, a cleansing, rebirth, a hard drive reboot, whatever you wish to call it.

It is healthy, and allows you to keep going, unlike those who choose, and yes, I said choose, to stay stuck and be unhappy and moan and bitch and whine about things that will never change the world, convince anyone around them that there is good to be had from existence and that we live in a world both sane and insane  — those definitions have yet to be properly studied, for everything is indeed perception.

For our experiment today, this world is sane and insane, in constant flux, like everything, and that is normal, it is how homeostasis is achieved. Not true balance, that is impossible, that is perfection, and no one is perfect.

The world is imperfect, humans are imperfect. we are supposed to be not perfect, so stop obsessing about your body, your hair, your clothes, house, money, your car, your spouse, children, the food you ate, and most especially, about yourself. There are much more wondrous things to be focusing on:

“A child said, What is the grass? fetching it to me with full hands,
How could I answer the child? I do not know what it is any more than he.”

~ Walt Whitman

Like that.

Exactly.

You see, the word prophets, artists, change makers, and freethinkers, crazy as one must be, know what I am talking about — they all understood, and still do: sacrificial, soul, sickness.

They lived it, breathed it, ate it, drank it, loved it, made love to it, despised it, and invited it deep into every fiber of their beings on purpose, then spit it out onto a canvas or paper or the sidewalk or into a microphone or the garden or the meal they prepared and into lovemaking, because my oh my, that is where soul sickness is sacrificed.

But be careful, I am not advising promiscuity, for the soul is to be savored, respected, admired and esteemed, like fine wine, a rose, like the wings of birds, like flight, like a wild thoroughbred on the plains, and like you, reading this now, wondering what I am asking you to do.

Do you know I once wrote an entire poem on a napkin with a stick of black eyeliner because I did not have a pen?

That is how easy sacrificial, soul, sickness, is.

 
So do it. Right now. I dare you. Whitman wants you to, I know he does:

“Clear and sweet is my soul, and clear and sweet is all that is not my soul.”

I am no expert, nor were any of the greats, yet they understood emotion, they understood empathy, compassion, they knew what it felt like to hurt and be happy, simultaneously:

“I am the poet of the Body; And I am the poet of the Soul. The pleasures of heaven are with me, and the pains of hell are with me…” ~ Walt Whitman

 
I guess what I am trying to say is: wake up, do not sell out, speak your mind, be nice, give, help others because you help yourself when you do that. This is easy, it will cost you nothing.

It is free, it requires no education, no attending classes, you do not have to take any medication, study the existentialists, go to therapy, meditate, study with a guru, prescribe to any train of thought but the one that speaks to you every single day. 

I know sometimes you might ignore it, your consciousness, that li’l devil, but start paying attention; you are smarter than you give yourself credit for.

We are brilliant designs of nature, extravagant creations of the most exuberant artists, nothing can compare to the excellence of the human body, mind, and spirit. You do not even have to do anything but sacrifice the sickness in your soul.

How does one do this? Well, I cannot tell you that, what do I know?

I am just a hack poet who cannot sleep, however I know that I am alive, somehow my heart beats, the blood pumps, the grass grows, the birds fly, the sky does brighten, and I know deep within the core of my heart that life is a gift and you need not sacrifice your soul any longer, only the sickness inside of it.

Cease being a slave to yourself.
Start now.

Do me a favor. Go into the bathroom. Look in the mirror. Really look at yourself.

Do you love what you see?

Tell yourself this: I love you.

Then smile. Really smile.

Smile so huge that you feel it on your face and allow your spirit to reflect back at you - your own beauty.

I dare you. Right now. Go do it.

I am waiting.

“It is time to explain myself — let us stand up.
What is known I strip away,
I launch all men and women forward with me into the Unknown.”

~ Walt Whitman

"The Forty Rules of Love" and "The Giver"

“Love exists within each of us from the moment we are born and waits to be discovered from then on.” 

  Elif Shafak, The Forty Rules of Love
 

This volume is a most enlightening work encompassing the meaning of unconditional love for all beings and states of being, the absolute divine essence of pure love, and the majestic states of spirituality. 

“Every true love and friendship is a story of unexpected transformation. If we are the same person before and after we loved, that means we haven't loved enough.”

 

 Elif Shafak, The Forty Rules of Love

This is a book that surpasses all organized faith, thought and current societal standards. Elif manages to present a simple, innate idea to an increasingly complex world. This is a volume to be read again and again throughout a lifetime to keep oneself in check. This recent work by Elif Shafak is the most profound book I have read in a long time. 

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“The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It's the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.”

  Lois Lowry, The Giver

"The Giver" is a rare glimpse into a world that Huxley and Orwell imagined in "Brave New World" and "Animal Farm." Although the three are drastically different, the theme of oppression and imagined equality are quite real. The difference with "The Giver" lies within the shared bond between the Giver and the Receiver. 

Lowry manages to seamlessly attach the reader empathetically to several characters, allowing one to become part of a world of sameness, devoid of all feeling, while simultaneously reading with pure human emotion. This volume touches upon gifts bestowed upon us all, the root of all spirituality, the power to see beyond and beneath, and to experience divine love. 

I never wished for this to end. The need to keep reading beyond what is written is immense. This story is compelling and demands continuation.

“The man that I named the Giver passed along to the boy knowledge, history, memories, color, pain, laughter, love, and truth. Every time you place a book in the hands of a child, you do the same thing. It is very risky. But each time a child opens a book, he pushes open the gate that separates him from Elsewhere. It gives him choices. It gives him freedom. Those are magnificent, wonderfully unsafe things.

[from her Newberry Award acceptance speech]” 

Lois Lowry

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Jharna झरना [Waterfall]

i watched you sleep

like angels
birthed
from the golden eyes
of heaven

i watched you sleep
as the rain
fell
peaceful and calming
to me

my soul
watched you sleep
and your spirit,
spoke

and i watched you sleep
as rivers raged
and oceans roared
and Mother Nature quaked and came
then bellowed
from the very depths
of the crusts of caves

that this time is precious

like diamonds buried deep within the snow
and sand
as it falls from the palm of one's hand
and every solitary tear
never wasted in vain

like every smile

a song of hope

and i watched you sleep
like angels
birthed
from the golden eyes
of heaven

© Susan Marie

[Jharna means "waterfall" in Hindi]

Three poems from April Glaser of "Wildy Open"

 © Alison Mayor

The Wind

This life is not yours to keep,
She says.

Learn to love.
And in love, 
learn to give it all away. 

Stop clenching your fists
and hobbling forward,
like the wretched inheritance
our parents deny passing on to us -

but did. 

Instead, 
learn to open. 
And breathe

but not like strangled children
drowning in shallow waters -

like the wind,
tearing through the trees. 
Screaming. 

Listen. 

Learn to be everything you love -

higher than the sky
and deeper than the ocean-

then master the art 
of gifting it all away. 


* * *  

 © Alison Mayor

The Fighter

So we are like ships,
crashing into one another
then sinking back
into ourselves.

This fire fueled by prayer;

Great Mountain,
with your ridge back beauty
and immoveable strength,

take my hand. 

Walk with me into the village,
where they have thoroughly forgotten
the weight of your name. 
Teach me how to be a silent force;
so loud, so enormous,
all deaf hearts tune 
to the choir of your truth. 
Help me to soften
around the things I hate,
and have no control 
to possibly change. 
Or break me in two,
three, four hundred distant ways
until I am as imperfect as you -
with shadows I can call home
and learn to crawl up into. 

Show me the way of family
flowering over narrow passages, 
intoxicated by life, and everything
becomes more beautiful with time. 

So the stories we carry 
have never felt more precious,
as we look out across this unlit season
and wonder how you’ll possibly survive. 


* * *  

 © Alison Mayor

All Things Real


Sorrow is the door 
by which my inheritance
showers gifts of sustenance
into my outstretched heart. 

So I enter

and wind around the circular
square of buzzing sensation,
until I come face to face
with the tanned and toned
silhouette of solitude

grazing upon red sunflowers,
aroused by the seduction 
of springtime’s end. 

Dark clouds loom,
casting shadows atop
our instinctual bodies,
so I inch towards my aloneness
as this exquisite one takes bold
steps back towards me. 

Slowly we stop, and stare
into the deep set eyes
of intimacy
and the understanding 
of all things real. 

As the sky parts,
eager faces turn East. 
But I greet the sun
in a different way

by quieting my pace to meet up
with the pulse of the Earth
and revealing parts of myself
that I’ve been told to keep covered;

exposed skin, caught between the teeth
of warmth and wind. And the lingering shyness
of being witnessed in my wilderness.  

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April Glaser is extra-ordinarily sensitive to the environment - to the steady flow of energy and emotion bubbling below the surface of everything. Writing is the artistic expression she utilizes to channel life's immensity. She visualizes artistry and profound beauty in this mysterious way of being. It is her birthright. It is what makes her fully alive. This is what her poetry is made of. After all, she was born into the dark hands of night.  Visit [and subscribe to] April HERE

  © April Glaser 

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I Have Worn The Madstone Smooth To The Crust 
& Recorded Molten Madrigals To The Sun 
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Presumes An Ecstatic Moan 
I Have Forced Myself To Swallow 
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And Sought To Spill Pale Light 
In Pools Of Cool Blue Irony 
All These Princely Cousins Of Narcissus 
Think Of Me Mouthless 
Make Of Me Thoughtless 
Forget That Where Revolution Begins 
It All Ends In The Language 
Of Gasoline & Matches . . . 

-randini-


*Randy Welch is a multifaceted artist in Denver, Colorado, USA. He can be reached HERE

Randy is the first to submit to my global request of inviting all forms of creativity to be displayed and promoted here and to the world. I invite all of you on this journey.

M O L O T O V H E A R T is a dynamic stream of consciousness and I am honored to bring fresh, enlightening and diverse trains of thought your way. 

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